Why I decided to not go on a mission - and the reason why I went.
As a convert to the church, I decided I would not serve a mission. I mean, what did I know to tell others in the world about the gospel? I had just been a member for two years and I felt that the more I learned, the more I discovered there was more to be learned. I felt I didn't have the knowledge that I would need to enable me to do it. In addition, a far more worldly reason, I loved music and I loved dancing. I took dance classes and I loved the way music made me happy, gave me energy, gave me solace... well, I just simply loved music. How could I live 18 months without music?!? I knew to pray about my decision, so I did. I did not get a warm, fuzzy feeling, but neither did I feel that dark feeling that I had come to know when something wasn;t right. So I did not rethink my decision. At this time, I was studying media, and I applied for a position at the Universitys TV channel, known to be a spring board to our national TV channel in the city. I came to the interview and