Random thoughts in the middle of the night

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It is almost 01am. I am awake. My worries keep me awake and I am pretty sure few people in the world are having this particular worry tonight: What if the Campi Flergei volcano wakes up?! The what, you say? Campi Flergei is a supervolcano situated in Italy, Vesuvius is but a baby in comparison. I am going to Italy this summer and will basically be driving a top of this super volcano. I asked my husband what if it blows while we're there?! He smiled and answered: haven't you always dreamt of being up close with a volcano? Well, yes, a sleepy one with a little lava sprinkled with a dash of  ashes. Not one that, according to the latest article, could obliterate the whole of Europe!!! 

My mind works by taking all scenarios in to analysis and then come up with solutions. (positive trait while playing games - I almost always win...) But not so positive with anxiety. So...one possible outcome is of course that this particular supervolcano goes boooom while we are there. The worst boom. Then what? Well, easy peasy, we are dead. And knowing that (as a child said in sacrament meeting recently) We never die "for real", that doesn't scare me that much. But...would i be ready spiritually?! Am I now doing what the Lord wants me to do? Am i fullfilling my purpose here on earth?! What can I do, what am I supposed to do? 

The past months have been hard in many ways and it is easy to find comfort and escape in the lighter things of the world to entertain, and that in turn draws you away from the more important things.
This shook me and woke me up. I need to pay more time and attention to the important stuff in life. Jeffrey R Holland said "we are in the thick of thin things" Lets find our way out of it and be where we are supposed to be. 

I am rather hoping this summer will be a fascinating trip to Pompeii and Vesuvius. As a wee volcano geek I have been wanting to see it since i went to a Pompeii exebition as a child. Hopefully no Volcano will stop me from that. 😉 But just incase...I will be busy trying to fill my lamp with oil...

Have a great Monday!

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